Author's Note xi
Prologue 1(6)
Chapter 1 Life Behind the Smiley Face
7(14)
Chapter 2 God's Second Paradise
21(14)
Chapter 3 A Double Identity
35(10)
Chapter 4 Somewhere---Anywhere---Far Away
45(10)
Chapter 5 Bare-Branched, but Ready to Bloom
55(14)
Chapter 6 The '99ers
69(12)
Chapter 7 "I Should Have Died a Long Time Ago..."
81(10)
Chapter 8 An Arm Like Frankenstein
91(14)
Chapter 9 Made in the WUSA
105(14)
Chapter 10 Baa, Baa, Black Sheep
119(14)
Chapter 11 "Only a Daughter Cries Like That"
133(12)
Chapter 12 Shadows
145(8)
Chapter 13 "You Can't Go by a Gut Feeling"
153(14)
Chapter 14 Stepping into Liquid
167(12)
Chapter 15 "Don't Let the Devil Steal Your Joy"
179(16)
Chapter 16 The New #1
195(16)
Chapter 17 Pretty Damn Sweet
211(10)
Chapter 18 Unprofessional Professionals
221(12)
Chapter 19 Seattle's Finest
233(12)
Chapter 20 It Just Takes One
245(10)
Chapter 21 The Silver Lining
255(10)
Chapter 22 Bare-Ass Naked on a Lawn
265(18)
Acknowledgments 283