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My First Love: Skratching | 
 
 
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The Twenty Words I Never Understood | 
 
 
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You Are You But I Am Black | 
 
 
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A Page From My Diary: Black And Beautiful | 
 
 
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Searching for a Little Respect | 
 
 
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I Wish...I Wish...I Wish!!! | 
 
 
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| Our Roots | 
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Through Those Articulate Eyes | 
 
 
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Ugat: My Village in India | 
 
 
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Dady's Girl and Life's Lessons | 
 
 
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| Person To Person | 
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Vain Imaginings and Other Artifacts | 
 
 
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Battered Butterfly: A Story of an Abusive Relationship | 
 
 
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| Ourselves Inside and Out | 
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The Child of Our Younger Years | 
 
 
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| Sharing Our Sorrows | 
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Death of a Grandmother, Loss of a Friend | 
 
 
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V. M.: Violence and Abuse | 
 
 
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| Reclaiming Our Voices | 
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The Struggle: Black, Light-Skinned, and Smart | 
 
 
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| Acknowledgments | 
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