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Gray's door was always open, because that's how Gray liked things. The door to my room was always shut, because that's how I liked things. My door was blank and unadorned. My door could have led to anything--a linen closet, a brick wall, an alternate universe. You only get one chance to make a first impression , Mom liked to say. It was characteristically shallow advice, but there was a truth to it that I only now realized. I followed Cirrus, heading left into Gray's room instead of right into mine. Cirrus had already made herself at home in Gray's salvaged steel swivel chair. She drummed her fingers on her thighs, as if eager to be introduced to the room's history. I started to say something, then stopped. I started to say something else, then stopped. I started to-- Cirrus eyed me with growing concern. "So are you--" she said. "These are guitars," I said suddenly. I craned my neck back to look at them. I stretched, sniffed, did all the things amateurs do when gearing up for a big lie. "They're my guitars." Cirrus brightened. "Wait. Are you in a band?" "Phtphpthpt," I said with a full-body spasm. "It's just a little band, but yes: I am." Cirrus looked at the guitars again, as if they had changed. "Very cool." I heard none of this, because my lie was still busy pinging around the inside of my big empty head like a stray shot. Shocking, how easily the lie had slipped out. "You're more than cool," continued Cirrus. "You're brave. Most people barely have hobbies, if they bother to try anything at all. Most people let the dream starve and die in the kill-basement of their soul and only visit the rotting corpse when they themselves are finally on death's door wondering, What was I so afraid of this whole time? " "Jesus, you're cynical," I whispered. Cirrus spotted something behind my guitars [Gray's guitars]: the torn Mortals flyer. "Is that you?" I cleared my throat, which was already clear. "That's, uh, my old band," I said. "We split up. I'm working on a new thing." "Cool-cool," said Cirrus, nodding blankly. Then she flashed me a look. Not just any look. The Look. I recognized the Look from when Gray was still at school. The Look was a particular type of glance Gray got often--a combination of burning curiosity barely masked by bogus nonchalance. Everyone badly wanted to know Gray; everyone pretended they didn't. The Look was the expression people gave to someone doing something well, and with passion. It was an instinctive attraction to creativity--the highest form of human endeavor--expressed by emitting little hearts out of our eyes. It was falling a little bit in love with people who were fashioning something new with their hands and their imaginations. I had always wondered what it would feel like to get the Look, and now I realized I had just found out. The Look was pure deadly sweet terror, and it felt incredible . I instantly wanted another. Excerpted from Super Fake Love Song by David Yoon All rights reserved by the original copyright owners. Excerpts are provided for display purposes only and may not be reproduced, reprinted or distributed without the written permission of the publisher.